no reason to complain...

Deep inside my head i know this was a really good day but damn, it was just a lousy day, at least in my head. I woke up feeling cranky, i tried breathing deep to get focused, smiling, nothing was working this morning. I got up around nine and all i could think was "i want a cigarette." Then mom called and she said something that bothered me a bit. It shouldn't have b/c it's none of my business but i let my opinion be known and that just made me feel worse.

I took her shopping. We'd arranged it earlier in the week but the trip was a bit tense. Then i realized i had forgot several things in my cranky state that needed done and so that didn't help. Anyway....got the errands done, went back to mom's b/c my brother was having ppl over to watch the football game. So there was family and friends. I did manage to get in a better mood but i'm still not great.

Since coming home, i've straightened up a bit (getting ready to do some more actually), played a game, had some serious munchies so i indulged (i'll feel bad about it later...lol), but i'm still not quite up to par. However, i haven't had a cigarette so i'm pretty glad about that. The urge was real freakin bad today...lol...but i survived without and that's the plan.

Sorry for the fairly dull post (as if most of the others aren't...lol) but it's been a day that's for sure....